Hmm… dunno. All my Holy Grails I’ve either just went and effin’ bought it
NO MATTER THE COST… (like Animorphs Taxxon, woooo that was a wallop) or I just see if the stupid thing doesn’t still cost half a mortgage and if it does I just decide I don’t want it anymore (like either Botcon version of BW Megs; like, really, guys??).
Plus, it also changes, depending on a lot of things. Like I’ve been jaded in the number of “Grails” I’ve obtained, in that so many of them ended up being “the journey, not the destination”-types, cus once I get them, they’re janky AF. Like their joints are a jambly loose mess, or it’s so badly engineered, that I’m either reticent to touch it as it getting in the way of itself frustrates me to the point of wanting to chuck said “Grail” into a brick wall, or I’m too afraid to touch it lest my playing with it wear it down to a nub… which makes its joints end up being a jambly loose mess. Like when I got G1 Grimlock. It meant so much for me
to try and get it, but once I
actually got it, it meant nothing. It’s literally rotting in a bag in a drawer in the garage, all complete and everything, and hasn’t been touched once since I brought it home over 4 years ago. I didn’t even transform it.
That thing was the reason I got into Transformers collecting. But once I got it? My husband asked me how it felt, since he knew how much it meant to me; he even paid for it for me as a gift. I remember forcing a smile and making a sound that was between a, “Heh” and a, “Meh”. I’m happier with my SS 86 (kinda) and my Cacus coming in the mail (sorta). I feel like I’ve gotten so used to the act of searching for a Grimlock, it feels better to just perpetually search for one, rather than actually be happy with any version that’s ever been made that I actually want, which is surprisingly few.
Guess the idea of attempting to obtain the perfect Grimlock that may exist out there is better than actually obtaining a Grimlock or having in-hand any version of Grimlock that actually exists, as I’ve been “meh” about all of them so far.
Feeling weirdly existential right now as it’s 39 degrees and raining outside.